<font color="#880000">Sounds fine to me, I feel better just knowing someone relates.

.....&amp; I totally hear you on the whole "men wanting their cake and eating it too......" That's how it feels sometimes....

I do love him dearly. What it really comes down to is me just wanting his happiness, ,I just don't know if I can be a part of it. I really do just want to see him happy and stable...But I'd like to be happy, too. These hard times are pretty hard. I wish we could take a break, and then start this relationship over in a few months....</font>