I just don't know what i'm feeling anymore. Yesterday i was fine, today i'm not. I don't think this has much to do with my anorexia but i thought about posting it here because i'm officially diagnosed just with it, though i think i may have other problems. I feel like i don't want to get to 2015. I feel like i should stop eating as a way of slowly kill myself, and i have very little will to push through my desires. I don't know, it happens to me all the time, i'm okay for a week or so and then 4-5 days of not wanting to get out of bed, not showering (gross), not eating or eating too much, sometimes i even break my drawings, or delete my writing pieces, i forget to journal, and i don't want to talk to people. Now i'm on the verge of one of those days, i don't know what to do to prevent it. I feel so lonely, it's ridiculous, i'm not alone! I'm going to a party tonight, but i feel so different from them, i don't know what's going on anymore. When this started happening it was about 15 days normal and then 2 days of this feelings. Don't get me wrong, when those "bad days" end i'm not suddenly normal again, i usually feel so numb, i take a very long shower, eat something and do whatever while feeling empty, even when someone hugs me. I don't want a 2015 like that. What should i do? Should i tell to my psychiatrist?

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