T and I had a conversation this week about a mutual friend. I told him I was upset when I found out they knew each other. He said that if it were his T, he would want to now all the dirt because then everything would be out in the open and there should be no secrets.

I have been mulling this over and I think that the reason I found it upsetting that they knew each other is because the more I know about him the more real he becomes. If he is real, then our relationship is real. And if our relationship is real, my attachment to him is real and then there is potential for me to get hurt. (Like I was as a child).

Hmmmmmmm I wonder if he deliberately made that comment. Of course, he did because everything in that room is directed at my therapy. Aha!