Coincidence that you posted this. I haven't seen T for the past few weeks and with the holidays I too feel a longing and crave closeness.

One of my resolutions for the New Year is to try to think a lot less about therapy and get my mind unstuck on T1/T2. I'm practicing re-directing my thoughts. Whenever I think about therapy and T in a way that makes me anxious or unhappy, I focus on my husband and children. I'll remember the happiest times with them such as the children's births, birthday parties, and Christmas mornings. You could also focus on a favorite movie or TV show. Funny parts are probably the most effective! The important thing isn't what the happy memory is, but shifting mental gears. Though something can be said for a proper grieving period and acceptance of feelings, excessive dwelling can be really destructive. That's sort of where I'm at right now. Since this is a resolution, there's still a lot of work I need to do

I hope this helps, and I'm so sorry you are hurting. I'm still raw after terming with T1 and it's been over 6 months, so you're in good company.