(((cosmicrexia)))

Thanks for being so candid. I don't think your post is negative. It is just honest and it is the way you feel and deal with difficult times in your life. It sounds like you struggle with motivation and I was wondering if depression is part of this. I would definitely talk to your psychiatrist and tell him or her what you are feeling when you want to stop eating. I would call them as soon as possible as thoughts of wanting to end your life is rather extreme. You do sound very aware of your problems and that is a great thing. I hope that 2015 is better to you. Please keep seeking help as there is always hope. Sometimes we just can't see it. Blessings!