Had a session today that did not go well, but even prior to this I've been thinking I might need a break. I'm too obsessed, and I don't think I'm working through or even addressing the longing feelings I suffer with all week. Our relationship is starting to feel stale. I feel like my therapist just wants to chat with me rather than try to provoke me to bring up deeper stuff, yet at the same time wants to hold me away at arms length so I know I'm not really his friend, just someone he does business with. I don't know how I'm supposed to interact anymore, having casual conversation with someone whose no one to me, maybe I am angry. I have no idea how to address it even, because I feel so pathetic. Our appointments seem to get shorter and shorter and I'm not saying anything new. Today even though he was in the office and not seeing anyone he came out to get me 5 minutes late, this seems to be his new pattern. Any ideas? Part of me wants to go back to the old therapist I had who would just listen to me while I cry.
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