I get the feeling like my therapist is intentionally trying to upset me, or maybe it's not intentional and it's just what he reminds me of. Maybe it's just me, or it was just that comment he made about us having a business relationship. I'm just so angry and hurt lately, and I sit there with him and rationalize like nothings wrong, but at the same time cry my eyes out and scream when I'm alone. I'm having the most toxic thoughts again, and I don't want to bring them up even because doing so has always felt manipulative to me. So... I emailed him and told him I was struggling with this and thought after next week I could take some time off. I didn't mention, but I might go back to the old therapist I saw, it has been a couple years now. Maybe I can process these feelings with her since I don't care much for her yet, LOL.