((Mefisto)),

I am sorry you are feeling so low and rejected. However, I have to tell you that often rejection is not because one is not good enough or unworthy either. Often it is because one might pose a threat or the person who is excluding you may even be jealous of you.
I have actually experienced what you are discribing and found out much later it was not because of anything I had thought.

Don't let the bad behaviors of others lead you to negative self talk ok? It is not a crime to stay home and hang out alone on NYE. It is really just another night anyway, and if you want to know, I am hanging out by myself while my husband is out working. I plan on getting some chores done as soon as I finish this post and then seeing what movie I can watch on TV. I would rather not be out there driving when there are going to be so many drunks on the road either.

Give life some time ok, try to get involved with some classes where you can learn some things and develop some hobbies, that is where the really interesting people are anyway.

((Happy New Year Hugs)))
OE