I'm very recently diagnosed as DID so still talk about myself as if I am one whole - which of course I am in a way - rather than made up of lots of parts, some conscious of the others, some absolutely not.

So, yesterday I found myself buying a colouring book, a bit of a sophisticated one aimed at adults (but really just a colouring book) and today I coloured. It was nice.

Don't feel like you have to justify anything about your experience. Your experience is unique to you - no textbook can define your experience.