Words aren't enough at times like these. I feel like you do about animals and while I have two that are 14, I know that the time with them is growing to a close.
My heart goes out to you. I know what a lose like that means. I've lost several beloved furbabies in my life. Just know that it takes time to get through the grief.
You are in my thoughts.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha