I feel so alone with my addiction. I binge excessively. I have gained 30 pounds in 4 months an I can't seem to lose the weight. I've tried everything to make me stop eating but I can't. Someone please help me. I can't go to impatient treatment because it's too expensive. I don't know what to do. I'm even in therapy. I've struggled with eating disorders since I was 9. I've tried to throw it up a few times but mostly I keep the food down. I feel so out of control. What should I do? I feel so alone.