Thanks Sideblinded. I am going to try my best to keep my word to her to see her Friday, but the weekend is worrying me the most. I have been in similar situations like this, but this time, it feels a lot different. I have tried giving it time to see if it will pass, but the more time passes the better my plan gets and the more I want to just go for it. But now that T knows, I kind of feel trapped...

I don't take any medication for my depression, but T has brought up the idea quite a few times. My mom doesn't believe in medication, especially for mental disorders. That's why she knows nothing of what is going on at the moment and I want to keep it that way, but I don't know if I can.