I feel very much the same way. I feel like I have been just plowing through life. I've had a pretty good life so far. But I feel like it could have been better. I don't like getting older that much. Since I went beyond the milestone age, I felt like it's all downhill.

The biggest question I have is: why were we born and live on this earth for a finite amount of time? It could be anywhere from just after being born to 100 years old. If we live to be a 100 or more, we will still die, and be forgotten after a while.

Another big question I have is this: where was I before I was born?