(((clinpsycstudent)))

I think I understand what you are saying here. It is so difficult to pinpoint our Dx's but what I think is going on is that you have triggers possibly stemming from your childhood. I am no T but I have these triggers that can throw me into a depressed mood or a spell that I cannot explain. I come from an abusive background so I know that these triggers are true for me. I hope you talk to your T about this and I hope you find a resolution soon.