I went to my second session of assessment yesterday, and was given what sounds like the TOVA test. I was told it was very boring, would take 20 minutes, and consisted of clicking a button with my thumb every time I saw a square blink on the screen in the upper quadrant of a box - if the square blinked in the lower quadrant, I was to ignore it. At first, I did very well clicking without much delay when I saw the box. I began to feel giddy and almost burst out laughing. After a bit, I actual felt like crying! My mind was everywhere, yet I was focused on hitting that button, to the point that I made mistakes of anticipation. I made quite a few errors, to the point that the practitioner monitoring the test said that I should take my time and focus on accuracy...but then the test ended. During the test I was aware of myself nodding each time I hit the button, and I felt squirmy in my seat, twitching my hands and feet.

But, I was told that, aside from trying to be too fast and making mistakes, that I did not show inattentiveness! Well, the problem is, I can get competitive and hyperfocus on a task!

Meanwhile, I had gone to visit my family for Christmas and had my dogs with me. I feed them a raw diet, and had to thaw their food in the microwave. I took one dog's ceramic bowl to use for thawing, and while the microwave was going, i started picking up the other dogs' bowls...but I couldn't find the one dog's cermaic bowl and kept looking everywhere for it, perplexed and exasperated! When the microwave chime went off, I looked and realized that I had used the ceramic bowl to thaw the food, d'oh! So, how do you explain that inattentiveness!

Meanwhile, my doc said I definitely test positive for OCD. I have so many episodes in a day where I am turning in five directions at once and forgetting things along the way, I just can't imagine what other explanation there could be....