In my case cyclothymia...for now anyways..that what my PDOC thinks so far...well I'm unsure..I tend to wonder is really really just that..a milder for of bipolar..But then she has also talked about ADHD..and brought back BPD..all put together..maybe..We talk more about symptoms and treatment. Deep down, I don't think I'll ever accept some of the symptoms..the emotions..the trial and error of medication. For a strange reason..the fact that she said I think this may be...was kind of a "aw finally someone sees something" I knew I've had this..I'll never accept the years it took and the many PDOCs who saw me without ever saying..maybe that's what you have..I'll never accept the fact that all during that time I took so many different meds that probably only put a bandaid for a while but made things worst..Never accept that one doc said here take these meds..but you are not sick ...but it started all over again..If really really this is my diagnosis, and if really really my present treatment prevents me from reliving the symptoms less often than I may accept that finally, it's not the illness that ruined part of my life but the fact that no other professional ever really took the time to asses my mental hill ness..so much pain, I think could of been avoided..but then again I wonder..Good question.