Recently i realized that i need to get better at hiding depression. If you let people, who are not your closest friends and family, know that you are depressed, that will avoid your company at all costs. They just don't care enough to feel all that sadness, awkwardness and frustration just to have conversation with you. And just not talking about your condition isn't enough, there are some non-verbal signs, that i personally can't control. The problem is - im bad actor in general. I never could tame my mood and just change it according to my desire. So how to hide depression, so the people wont notice?
And somehow i think that women can sense depression better than men. They are more powerful at detecting hided feelings and intentions of people around them. I often get impression, like some girls can see right through me and feel like they should avoid company of such depressive guy, so in the result they behaving cold and distant.