Hi jenny55, I've wished my T was my older sister as a my T is a nurturing older figure in my life - I don't have that from anyone else.

I wrote it all out and gave it to her in a letter.

Because I felt very vulnerable, I wrote about how scary it felt to type my feelings out and how I felt I wouldn't dare to tell her about my feelings verbally or even hand over the letter. After a while, the words just flowed, even embarrassing ones like how I wanted to just push the letter over and run.

I ended up givivg her the letter at the end of the following session and we processed it the next session. I was really anxious until that next session.

I could also have given it to her at the start of the session but I felt I couldn't cope with the anxiety of her reading it then and there.

I'd like to encourage you to write your thoughts down, no matter how embarrassing.

A good T will be understanding.