i'm in exactly the same situation. (well in terms of my thoughts about new year)

what is the point- and especially for me, because i'm on my own, and it just seems not fun at all

1 of the things i always said about new year celebrations is if people are so intent of celebrating new year, then why not celebrate the beginning of january, the beginning of febuary, the beginning of march, etc. it's all a waste of time. all it is is another number, and for me- since every year gets worse and worse for me, it's just a guilt trip. in sted of thinking.. oh well, in 2015, this is going to happen, and this, and it's going to be 1 of the best years ever, you get to thinking.. well, you know, i should have done this, this and this by now. you thinking... well, you're heading in to 2015 with no family support, no qualification, no direction lin life, i do see your point... reeally i do.

as for advice, you should deffenetely see someone. yeah, okay, probably easier said than done (because it can be so hard), but it's a step in the right direction.

you could also set small goals for you every day. possibly the same goals (each day i'm going to write in my journal, each day i'm going to go for a walk), or goals that are passiffic to you

i read somewhere once about a guy who set himself 365 goals (1 new goal every day), and it was anything- ranging from baking cookies to going on a steam railway. then in the evening he wrote in his journal about it.
maybe that will help?. (and if 365 is too much, perhaps a month worth of goals)

good luck