You definately need to take time for yourself before anyone else. Im sorry about the way your husband acts, it sounds familiar to my situation at one time and if i didnt leave my ex, sons father, i dont know where id be now. About your children, they dont need to be around someone like you describe. I know you are worried about the schooling, but could they get financial aid? I hope you are ok and i hate to say it but get away from this jerk as soon as possible!!!