Thanks guys,

Really appreciated the support!

I mean my close friends or my family would not have too much of a problem telling them what I've been going through for almost a decade(I would think so). But I'll take that with a grain of salt.

The thing is, I've now realized that maybe I expect too much of myself; academically, financially and emotionally. I've sort of never been satisfied with any shortcomings nor have been fazed by any of my achievements. And when I am, it's usually very short term.

I have some important papers to turn in. These "papers" are what drew me deeper into my depression which was already serious in the summer of 2014. I want to make sure everything is perfect from the wording to the grammar. This time to the point where I don't end up kicking myself.

Maybe then I might see an on-campus counselor but I also suffer from social anxiety too (That's another story). I don't know. I'll see, though.

Apologies if this was too long.