Did not sleep well last night because of noise from the outside, especially at midnight. Felt painful in bed, but I wonder if it's because of the anticipated tension for midnight. There was a lot of noise at midnight but it didn't last very long. I guess it was because it was so cold.

Woke up this morning with a feeling of dread. Had my breakfast and only felt slightly better. Trying to relax today, but I might do some domestic stuff just to keep myself occupied. Feeling very alone. I'm expecting phone calls today because it's my birthday. I dread getting a year older now. I think a lot about where will I be on my next birthday. I feel like I have so much personally to take care of this year and I hope to be lead in the right direction.

Maybe my friend and I could get together later on. He took a bus to go to the Tournament of Roses Parade in Pasadena. He said that his daughter was involved in one of the floats. He told me that he could possibly be back here around 4.

I'll probably post back on here later on.