Have you ever been so scared of your therapist leaving you that you have begged them to stay?

Do your thoughts play havoc when they do go away and you fear that they will never return and they are just going to leave you?

I am struggling so bad with this at the moment- I feel like a little kid who is throwing a tantrum, it's hard to control. My T says I have to push through it, so i will see that i wont be abandoned but it is so hard. To me there is not time to push through it- it's either now or never. Each day is a new day to be abandoned. What happens today doesn't mean anything tomorrow!

I really just want my T to return so everything can be ok again.