"Breathe..." My T tells me this ALL the time
I don't really spend much time anymore on the BPD boards. I always felt like I fell into the middle: functioning, but not high functioning. Plus, it's difficult to find support concerning DBT. Everyone wants to summarize the modules for me, and I'm not supposed to learn them yet. I kind of want to know what it's like during and what changed afterwards, but not what is actually being taught.
I know I'm just having paranoid thoughts due to fear and the unknown. I know I have my T's and Pdoc's full support. I know they won't let anything happen to me. And technically, county can't piss off my Pdoc because they are currently in a deal process to allow each other's clients have access to each other's facilities. County clients will have access to medical care and my Pdoc's clients will have access to groups. And since my insurance is working one-on-one with my T, they can't piss either of them off either.
I think I will feel better once I know what's going on and who everyone is.
I don't know any information about the group yet. I have an hour long assessment this Wednesday. I'm not worried about that. I talked to the woman on the phone and she seems nice. And I already have experienced multiple assessments. I actually find this assessment hilarious. Like what are they going to assess? Hmm, that I have BPD, depression anxiety, I need medication, individual therapy, and DBT?
After the assessment, it will take 4-6 weeks to see the county's Pdoc. I guess after that I can start group? I don't know when the group is, where it is, how many people, what module they're on, etc. I'm only supposed to go for 3 months, though it is my choice (I think) to stay longer. I'm hoping to do the mindfulness and/or distress tolerance above the other 2. But I just don't know how any of this works. Which sucks because right now I depend on my fiance toget me places, so hopefully it won't interfere with his work schedule. I wish someone would tell me something. Being able to plan would reduce some of the stress.
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Originally Posted by guilloche
Breathe... I know you've talked about how awful county was for you in the past. I think it's amazingly brave that you're willing to face all that to get the DBT training - that's *awesome* and I'm pulling for you, ScarletPimpernel!
I haven't done DBT (but keep seeing things that make me think it's a good idea). Did you see a little while ago, on the BPD boards, someone recently finished a DBT course and got alot out of it... here's the thread:
http://forums.psychcentral.com/borde...57-hurrah.html
And, I think your T is very committed to you, and will have no problem putting her foot down if county tries to "steal" you away. Does that make sense? I'm sure she'd fight to keep you!
Good luck Scarlet... I'm actually really excited for you! I know it's scary and nerve-wracking and insanely difficult, but there's so much possibility there too. I hope you're able to get a lot of great skills and information, so that all the stress ends up being worth it.
When does it start? Is it weekly?
*Good luck!!!!*  |