I hear you loud and clear, struggling with this transference stuff myself (again) right now. I put it in an email to my t, and ask to talk about it. We just had a discussion about this yesterday actually, and I'm feeling a little bit better about it all, but I told her yesterday that I hate feeling so needy and vulnerable and that it is sucky. Because it is. But I sort of am starting to understand what it's all about, why working through it is so healing. The feelings can really be intense though can't they? What virginia1991 said - my t's consistency too has been so helpful. I actually am starting to see that there may actually be healing found in this intense, embarrassing stuff if we stick with it. Hugs to you.