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....trying to do everything to fight the inevitable darkness that comes for me in jan-/feb. Then spring rolls in and the wacked out cycle begins. My pdoc said this is why most suicides happen in may/april.
I am doing everything i can to try fight the winter hell but i already feel myself slowing down. My speech and interactions are apathetic and muted. Im so tired all the time and trying my best not to isolate. Winter here is soooo long dark and cold!
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I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning, I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own
I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing
Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!
One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand
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