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Originally Posted by musinglizzy
I just brought the topic up about T's kid(s) in another thread. Perhaps I should have just started a new thread, but I didn't want to seem pathetic...lol
My T goes on about her daughter....and yes, I'm envious. One time I got the nerve to bring it up....I shocked myself that's for sure! She took it well. She actually seemed to understand. I know she has a teenage daughter, and I know they are close and do a lot together. T knows I was born to a child myself, and for most of my childhood, my mom did nothing to support or protect me, and we were far from close. In fact estranged for 10 years.... It is what it is....but it really stings to have T bringing up her precious daughter all the time. I really like my T, and I am sure she's not completely oblivious to the fact that she's doing this, and it stings (especially since I talked to her about it), I feel like she's doing this purposely to desensitize me to the topic. It's not working...yet. But I wish she'd leave her daughter out of my therapy. Is that snotty or what?
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Yeah I get it. It makes me feel bad on many levels. Part of me feels like I'm incapable of caring about him because I'm jealous of his relationships that are satisfying. One of the hardest comments he made was how it was "sooooo easy" to love his kids. I agree though, I think it's done on purpose, and that's part of why I'm running away now. I'm in a fragile state and I just can't take this right now.