I have disconnected from my therapist and people all together. I've been feeling needy and wanting to call my therapist to hear her voice but I don't because the truth is she can't change how I am feeling.

She can't be what I needed all those years ago and was never given.

I was giving her to much power and now I am taking it back, to be blunt she is no different than me or anyone else, she struggles and has issues too. I've learned that no matter who it is, sometime or another I will need them and they can't be available emotionally so my abandonment issues will kick in high gear. I've come to the conclusion it's better for me to accept that people can't be or give me what I need.

I don't interact with people anymore, I haven't in a long time. (except hubby) and hubby asked me last night if I got lonely and I told him no because I don't put much stock into people. I terminated therapy today.

I wish everyone here well and hope that some day you don't give your therapist so much power. Bree