How do you cope with the devastating lows when you have no support system?

I was really in trouble last night. I followed my safety plan, calling my loved ones for help. My father changed the subject, my ex-husband (also a friend) yelled at me, and my boyfriend said he was too busy. Then he yelled at me when he got home. The only thing that helped even a little was a suicide hotline. By the end of the night I was so exhausted and numb I couldn't even speak.

I'm trying so hard to stay strong with my son gone. I wish I could talk to my t, but she's on vacation.

I'm at a loss. Where do I turn when things are at their worst?

Oh, yeah, I've gone to the ER before, asking to be admitted when I feel like this, and I'm always sent home. They tell me to call my pdoc because they don't deal with "issues" like mine.

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