Thanks for your comfort. It's all been such a mess how mine came together. I once had confidence only in myself and no one else. Now I have no confidence in myself at all, and have placed my confidence in the hands of people who barely know me. Scary to say the least.

This has all been a nightmare for me and got me down. And when there's more people than jobs to sustain population, the weak must be eliminated theoretically. That even got mrntioned in a conversation I was having with someone last week. So, I expect to be denied again and after this long waiting process, it's going to crush my soul even more. I'm hoping to prevent the inevitable, but the inevitable looks to be the only successful path.

I'm due to see my therapist today. Maybe we can have a productive session today.