Ughh just got an email and a phone call from my pdoc checking up on me. Apparently while in an ambien trance I emailed him a suicide note that was barely legible. This was the other night when I od'd. That's just embarrassing on my part. Though it was nice of them to be concerned it was hard to explain what happened and how I'm actually doing fine. Now I'm afraid they're going to stop the Chlorpromazine and leave me on the depot as I clearly cannot be trusted with pills. The chlorpromazine has really been working and I think that's evident, even when I post on here. I'm not delusional as much and recognize my delusions from the past two years.