I dont have fears of literal abandonment with T despite some periodic challenges in Therapy. She is very disciplined and loyal and makes time for me when things get bad. I do need reassurances that 1) she doesnt reject me as a person 2) she think Im worth saving. The day I expressed those fears in session I was begging/sobbing. Ugh.

If she ever implies that she's moving away or leaving this line of work then I'll get abandonment fears! It's not a decision she'd make lightly because she seems very serious about her work. But wait. Come to think of it she just mentioned having a second home in another state. Uh oh...!