Not sure how to deal with the terrible silence from my Paranoid schizophrenic boyfriend...I am pining away from him being gone....he keeps his emails unblocked but never responds...I don't feel like living anymore...I am 65 and he was the best thing that had ever happened to me but now he is gone....and I don't know if he will ever be back..he has or had the delusion that I would die if he was with me so he disappeared....I am so very very sad....his caring is so misguided and now we cannot see each other for another eight months...I don't know how to continue getting through the days...I miss him so much...every day is so very sad...I have nothing to live for or look forward to anymore...