Moose, I find the word 'waiting' intriguing. I often feel the feeling of impending doom. Something dark waiting in the shadows to pounce and boom - my life as I know it will change and some upheaval will send it spinning out of control.

I wonder if that is what you mean? I have control issues. Not with others, but in my own life, I like knowing what to expect, and what may or may not happen and when things happen (like in November my oil furnace stopped working) I have to get on it immediately to make sure it is taken care of. I get very one minded and direct, not focusing on anything else til it gets resolved. (I can become belligerent toward any obstacle that stands in the way of what I perceive as my solution, not hearing others if they present a different idea)

If your 'waiting' is similar - I would wonder if you had recently had some big life change that you are still adjusting to, and if it were shocking to your system, and if you are just carrying fear of the unknown around like I sometimes do.

Thoughts?