Life has been pretty difficult for me recently, and I don't know how I have actually survived to be brutally honest. I have just felt so alone, isolated, and depressed. But today is different. My cousin recently recommended books by Joyce Meyer who is a Christian writer and talks about stereotypical belief in Jesus and G-d and since she recommended it to me I decided to pick it up and read it, as a person from the Jewish faith it's been frustrating having to read about Jesus so much, but that's what I get when I read a book written by her. And the thing that frustrates me is that I have to have complete trust is G-d to get through my troubles ? I guess I can see how that would be true, but at the same time that seems a little far fetched, like I have to rely on G-d to get me though my depression and my slew of other diagnoses ? I don't know, it's frustrating and annoying at the same time. Because I do believe in something stronger than myself but I am not sure it's a He/She/It/Entity. I know this is not the spirituality forum, but my cousin has dealt with a lot and she said this author has gotten her out of her hole. I need/have to get out of mine because I won't survive otherwise. I really won't, this depression is getting to be really difficult to manage and I'm relying way too much, or at least I think I am relying too much on my partner. I'm not sure, but I am going to ask her tonight and see what she thinks. Thanks everyone for being here !