Hi Skeezyks,

Thank you so much for your response, I really appreciate it

I was also so sad to read what you wrote.. It was wrong of your father to abuse you like that!!! It makes me incredibly mad when I read about parents doing something like that to their children.. I mean, when you think about what a parent should be - someone you can trust more than anyone! - and they turn on you like that.. It's sick And so were those who bullied you!

I believe YOU are a gift to humanity.. I believe each and every one of us is, or we have the potential to be. Some just get so screwed up that they decide to go on to hurt others.. That's never going to be me, though, not if I can help it!!! This is why I'd so desperately want to be able to leave my house and shine a light outside in the world, but it's damn scary after losing trust.. I just have to realise it was the individuals in my life who weren't/aren't trustworthy - that it's not the Truth about all of humanity. I also feel I need to develop better coping skills for if and when I come across people who enjoy hurting others.. Thus far, I've simply dissociated, but it's not a good coping mechanism as it means I won't be hurt, but won't learn anything either..

I wish you all the best and hope you have found happiness in your life