Hi Lettingo,I was on and off treated for depression all my life(AD's) always made me worse,until I was sent to hospital for the first time at 50.
Only saw psyche twice and she diagnosed me with depression the first time(did tell her that ads don't work),but she put me on anti depressant(mirtazapine),and yet again no help,in fact like you got a whole lot worse,worse then any other AD.I just stopped taking them,and yes got in trouble for it,but I figured now that I was extremly suicidal they were not helping.I DON'T recommend you do that.It is better to go back to doctor or hospital and do it correctly.I didn't as it was 3 months before i was able to get an appointment for psyche.Thought I would actually be dead by then.

The second time I went,she said that I am probably menopausal also.Told me it would pass,lol been like this all my life.I guess though,it was worse then.

Time is always a factor with psychatrists,so as she said if ADs aren't working that maybe I was bipolar 2 and she would put me on a mood disorder drug called serequel.Well that did work for awhile (although it took a couple of months)and the dose kept getting upped as it stopped working until now aged 54.They are not working now.

My actual GP doctor is,as she said not qualified in this field,but as was stated above by Imah she thought maybe borderline was more me,but i don't cut.Mind you was very tempted on mirtazipine.Son showed up before I actually done it.

Here in Australia,there are only a few mental illnesses recognized.So they like to put you in a catergory,that they do use.

However since doing my own research,I think I have personality disorders with depression.Drugs have little impact for me,depression still appears reguarly.Therapy would be good,but here in backwardville there is none.

I know none of this will help you really.guess the only thing you can do is go back to doctors as soon as possible.I think the meds should be working by now.

Also,do some research ,you might find that you relate to something different then bipolar.You can then mention to doctor,and hope they listen :-/.

Take care of yourself,and get to hospital if you think you are in danger.