What are the chances that this is demon possession and not bipolar? What are the chances that, even if one sits here and laughs at this presumption, the enemy sits and laughs at my turmoil, at all of my medications, and just thinks "I am winning; I am winning"? What if my past dreams, that I once believed were prophetic, were really schemed nightmares? How is it that my once intimate relationship with the Lord has been tattered by this "illness"? In almost no ways does my life equate to that of a believer's life. I need to be rescued but I don't understand how to receive help. Maybe I really do need to have demons cast from me. Maybe evil is taking over me. What if I turn into something horrible? What if I do something horrible? I think the enemy can consume me; I think that he is taking over my mind and is making me weak and unbearable. I cannot resolve to fight him. I just don't know how and I don't have the will or the energy.