Okay so I'm 19 years old with BP, ADHD and all that good stuff. I'm recently diagnosed with bp and just starting out on zyprexa so i'm still unfolding on the new meds but that's besides the point. The problem is, is i'm about to have my second knee surgery already, so my knee is messed up and i cannot sit still. I compulsively pace around, which hurts like hell but not as much as trying to sit still i guess.. what should i do?? I'm really into buddhism, meditation, self growth and psychology. I believe knowledge is power. But it's really hard for me to do these things w/ my problems. I used to use drugs a lot (downers) especially opiates. I fell in love, they allowed me to enjoy all these things, they literally made all my problems go away, and somehow made me more productive. But i turned myself in before i became an addict and got help (mental hospital) so i've been clean for 3 weeks now. I'm feeling alright but i feel that i was made to do big things and i can't get myself to get up and do things. Sorry for shotgunning so many different problems and questions but i would really appreciate any input you can give me. Thank you (: