I think he would be willing to go. For awhile we agreed to go no contact, then we had a fight closer to Christmas. Since then we have talked a couple of times. I can see the improvement this time- it's different from any of his previous "ups". His attitude is more positive and it seems like he can actually picture a future for himself.

I know I don't owe anyone an explanation. I just find that I'm really sensitive about the relationship when others ask me about it. I think it may be because I couldn't control what happened or because it wasn't living up to what I wanted it to be. He makes me laugh so much and is putting forward such an effort!

I know there would be no going back to the way things were, but sometimes I have hope that there could be a new beginning. I just don't want to get ahead of myself.