I got sick this week, first with the stomach flu and now with the regular flu. I realized it was the longest streak in a year or more I haven't had beer. Usually I have about two small-sized bottles of beer a night, but maybe twice a week up to four or five bottles.

I also was taking Citalopram until a few months ago.

I'm noticing I'm anxious, or more aware of my anxiety than usual. I am trying to do yoga to help. Now that I'm not drinking I feel like I should keep on not drinking except maybe twice a week. I didn't even realize that I was basically a low-level alcoholic for the last year, likely to mask my feelings. I started drinking this much when my dad's dr's told me he had 6 mo to live. He's still alive, though not really functioning very well.

It seems like all the issues I was trying to shove into the background with my drinking are still here and I still have to accept them or think about them in a new way. I try to meditate but it's really hard for me!