I took a long hot shower hoping it would make me feel better. The solitude only perpetuated the lack of peace in my mind. I feel like an *** for all of my posts today. I wish I could delete them. I feel embarrassed and ashamed. I am going to take a double dose of Klonapin, I think I really need it, and TRY to sleep...if I can get my mind to shut up. Tomorrow is a new day. I know it will be better. I know I will have some peace. Thank you all for your support. I am sorry I was so all over the place. I am sorry I am so paranoid.