This past Spring, I nearly had to go inpatient because I was severely underweight. Because of financial issues, I went into an outpatient program instead, and left the program before I was fully weight restored. But I've nearly doubled my weight in the past seven or eight months, and now I'm actually overweight. I've gone through periods of overeating, but I've also lapsed into restrictive habits for short periods of time without losing any weight. I'm scared that now, because the damage my eating disorder did to my metabolism and just my overall attitude towards food, I'm going to be overweight for the rest of my life.