Cashart, good golly you are not the reason I was feeling odd. Not at all - and if you want to delete this thread you can I think. I was feeling suspicious, then jittery, guilty and paranoid tonight because I have been talking more then I am usually do and that makes me feel like I am doing something wrong. (Reminder I am still overcoming agoraphobia, and a social butterfly, with mania, who becomes agoraphobic, tends to have a lot of see sawing emotions during the healing process).

I do not think taking an extra dose of Klon is necessarily for the best. Follow your prescriptions to the letter. Telling our spouses the deepest feelings of our soul isn't always 100% the right thing to do, however they had best validate our feelings and be supportive more then 80% of the time. When you are feeling better next week or whenever, be sure and have a good talk with him about how to handle your more difficult moods. I had to do that also. We need to empower our family and friends support network so they know the right things to say, and when we do need outside help.

Now, you did good things today, you did get up and do some things with the kids, the house and finally even yourself - showering. That is great, you are probably on the up side of the darkness on the way to feeling better. I would agree with getting some good rest, avoiding caffiene for sure, trying to be very regimented in your schedule until you see the Dr. I am guessing your extreme depression is a side effect, swinging to the dark, instead of the light.

Our meds are all about balance, and when they are off - we know it for sure! Your talking to me today was balancing for me, because I felt like I was talking to myself. Someday when I am darkness and you are light, you will return the favor, because that is who we are. Good people who need to feel a togetherness with our surroundings, if we don't we feel like we could fall.

I tried to keep you from falling, and you kept me from flying away. That is what the sisterhood/brotherhood of PsychCentral is about, isn't it?

Good night friend. And good night all - best of luck to each of us. <3

Cashart - you are sooo grounded from listening to the blues when you are depressed! Just kidding, LOL! This is a GREAT song for mimicking the sensation of barely hanging on. No wonder you listened to it repeatedly, and don't let yourself tomorrow. I will try to find something, anything that might help. Here ya go, this song - you gotta smile. Remember you have friends, and your darling husband loves you and needs you. Best wishes my friend.