Hiya.

Since this is not officially recognized as a kind of addiction as far as I am aware, I am here to find out what y'all think of it.

I think it's possible that I am addicted to study as the title suggests. That is, it's not that I like to study all in all. It affects every part of my life. Sure, if I were to go out, I would probably 'enjoy' it, but I would feel very guilty because I would think I was wasting precious time I could be studying for things I did not need to.

Basically, I study just because. I cannot do without it. I literally cannot spend a day without studying. And it wears me out pretty badly sometimes.

I'm usually very tired, even after sleeping, I started drinking coffee again in order to be able to study longer and read more (I've got a lot of books to read, possibly a hobby that got out of control) and I'm afraid it's like Burnout.

Several hours a day started not being enough whereas a couple of years ago I felt really good studying about two hours very productively. Those several hours are exponentially more productive and yet I feel nowhere near as good as I felt when I studied two hours a couple of years ago. Just like a drug addict keeps needing more and more of his drug to get the same high.

I can maintain at a basic level social relationships especially through the Internet, but even when I'm talking with them, I cannot refrain from studying, I try to do both. I'm afraid my priorities are going to get messed up and there are people who have stood beside me and through a few things people should not have to because of my mental health problems, and I'm not willing to lose them, but I feel totally powerless against the fate of this.

Thank y'all so much for taking the time.