Thank you. Yes, it helps me to understand it a bit better. For me it's scary, because it's rather new. For a T it might not be and that makes it harder for someone like me to understand something that might seem 'indifferent'. Maybe for my T it's a lot clearer.

I am glad my T doesn't send me away, but I can't help but feeling misunderstood. As if not being taken seriously. It's probably a very hard differentiation to make for the one having these thoughts. I'm aware of that.