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Originally Posted by Resident Bipolar
See yeah I get you. Going out can actually occasionally complicate things. I had a close call recently too. Closed my eyes, felt a massive surge of adrenaline, got shivers all over my body and nearly took that step. A good sign I stopped myself I suppose, but it was a very close call. Back at work next week too. And it almost happens whenever I'm on my way to/from work.
Outside is often a risk. I feel much safer indoors, at home.
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What it is about driving- the urges had been there for a few weeks and I imagined senarios- never wanted to die- just be in the hospital for a bit to take a break from the world. That day was really scary though. It's been about 19 years since I was that close. I suppose from now on when the thoughts of driving off the road start again I should do something right away. The people in my life would let me stop and take a break and re-group. It is just SO HARD to ask for help when you need it bc it's then that you don't want it.