Hello AlwaysChanging2, it is always good to seek support when you feel a crisis is looming. Do you have a therapist/mental health team that you can contact? If you are cutting yourself, this is an indication that you need some help. Here is a list of helplines >>>
Common Hotline Phone Numbers | Psych Central 
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