Hi geez, do you think it could be working the other way around just as much..........the feeling that you don't fit in, that no-one really cares, the needs of belonging..........could maybe be coming from the depression itself??? Certainly the "beating yourself up" bit as well??
And maybe with some more help with the depression.............???
And maybe your family do really care, more that they don't quite "get it"??? But one sure thing is we care here!!!!
And hopefully here is at least somewhere you feel you can fit in/you don't need to be anyone but you............even if that's just until the depression eases with help and you can "feel more a part of life" out there.

Alison