Saw T yesterday and while it did help me cope a bit, I can also sense how frustrated T is with me. My downwards spiral keeps getting worse... I nearly got into a car crash before christmas, spent the last two weeks binge eating or drinking to cope, planning suicide though I'm not ready to go through with it.

I hate my situation, unless I move out I will never get any better, and yesterday T mentionned being really worried about me, and for the first time in two years we mentioned me maybe not making it...

Anyway, I'm doing everything in my power to change my situation, but there are so many unknown factors that I don't if ow when that will be possible. But if I go on like this, I worry I'll have to go in-patient at some point to keep me safe.

If that happens, what are such stays like? What should I expect? What's the best way to go about it if at some point I feel it's needed?

If you don't mind I'd like to hear about your experiences, as I've never been in-patient before though I probably needed it on some occasions.